Help! I’m called to be an Entrepreneur!

How I found a childhood memory wreaking havoc in my now

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So here I was. I took the plunge. I incorporated a company called Creative Appnologies. And then…

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Then I found a whole bunch of questions started to come up. Questions like:

-> Who am I?
-> What do I stand for?
-> Why does doing this matter to me?

I was so confused. I had been so clear about my calling. Yet in the ‘here and now’ I discovered an unexpected tension between the certainty of my calling and reality of walking it out. This tension was wreaking havoc in my now.

One area of tension stood out: A strange fear when acting upon opportunities I’d identified.

With a strong belief in being called to be an entrepreneur and investor, this was mission critical. I had to figure out where this was coming from.

Where are these questions coming from?

As I dove into this question, I found myself exploring a painful event from my past. It seemed innocuous — or at least of no great cosmic importance — yet within was the core of something which was wreaking havoc in my now.